NaNoWriMo is just around the corner! I’m so excited but also a little nervous. Not only is this a huge writing commitment but I also changed my mind at the last minute about what book I’m going to write! I know! YIKES! So to raise my spirits and keep motivated as a writer, I have a series of fun things to help me out – and of course I had to share them with you!
(Video coming soon)
National Novel Writing Month is a fantastic motivator. The community online and off is like having a group of cheerleaders at any given time. They’re writers willing to share writing resources, do challenging word sprints, and give pep talks. I love this month!
Partipate in multiple locations! You can go on the NaNo site and hang out in the forums, search for Discord or IRC chats for NaNoWriMo participants, check out the #NaNoWriMo hashtags on social media (I prefer Twitter), and more. Offline, local areas often have write-ins where writers in your area can come together at libraries, coffee shops, etc to hang out, write and help each other out.
I am an achievement whore. I love badges and progress charts so much. This is part of why I love gaming (Skyrim!!!). So when I learned there was an online fantasy game that helped writers draft their works – I was so ready for it!
4theWords is a game where you “battle” adorable monsters by doing word sprints. Different word counts defeat different monsters – the easier ones are struck down by writing 100 words or so and the harder ones by chugging away at thousands of words in one go. By defeating monsters, going on quests, and writing multiple days/weeks/months/years in a row (streaks) you receive badges, loot, etc.
You can join 4theWords today and try it for a month free. After that its pretty cheap to play. You can buy crystals and spend crystals on monthly subscriptions or other in game materials. When you sign up, be sure to use my referral code (ZJHCO88919) and I’ll add you as a writing buddy. For NaNoWriMo you can also add the bonus code (wrimo19) and get 2 weeks extra for free! Do this even if you already have a paid subscription, you still get the 2 weeks free.
Writing Charts, Posters, and Gold Stars
I told you I’m an achievement whore. I love a good progress chart. Not only do I have my NaNoWriMo site chart to go on but I also have a physical chart that I can rely on when I need to unplug from the internet and focus on writing without distraction.
As I write and achieve word count goals, I’ll mark the chart and use some sparkly stickers.
Rewards and Punishments
Last but not least are my sets of awards for reaching certain goals…and punishments if I don’t. I am blessed with a great, supportive Dom who is more than willing to help me along on this journey.
When I reach certain word count and story goals I get a prize:
Halloween candy (we’re totally hitting the store after Halloween for the big discounts)
Have you ever read a novel where the location or part of the location felt like a character in itself? Narnia, Hogwarts, Anne Rice’s New Orleans, Stephen King’s Rose Red – all of these locations add interest and depth to the stories being told. If you take any of these locations out of the story, the whole plot falls through. I’d say that is a key to a well established and well written world in a story.
When getting into world building, make sure you use all 5 senses – sight, sound, smell, taste, and touch. This builds reality around even fictional locations. It allows readers to fully immerse themselves in the story. For example: Taste – food is a great thing to focus on even if you aren’t writing a foodie romance. There are stacks of unofficial cook books for Game of Thrones, Harry Potter, Narnia, and other series/stories because readers want to eat what they read their favorite characters enjoying.
World Build EVEN IF You’re writing a contemporary novel set where you live. I’d say especially so. This will not only give you a better handle on locations mentioned and used in the story but it can help you avoid flat characters, plot holes, and timeline issues.
On a final note before we get into the questions: Please avoid White Room issues – where the reader has no idea what the space your characters are in looks like. You might be tempted to let the reader fill in the space with their imagination BUT – if you rely on imagination of your reader…what’s the point of them reading your book? They could just imagine their own if that is the case. Give them the information they need to see the story that YOU are telling!
My World Building Questions
When writing a scene, ask yourself how you can incorporate more than one of the five senses.
What is the climate of your world?
What languages do your characters speak?
What is the history? (Don’t stress writing a whole encyclopedia of the history but keep in mind how war, changed in government, etc effects the characters today)
What is the currency? Is there an exchange rate between locations?
What material goods do the people most value? (gems, oil, gold, lumber, furs, etc)
What religion(s) are prevalent?
What subcultures does your world have? (This can allow your cultures to not seem shallow. Not every culture has taboos and practices adhered to by all people – this is how subcultures come into play)
What foods, spices, and drinks are common?
What major bodies of water are nearby?
What land formations are nearby? (mountains, plains, canyons, sink holes, beaches)
How far is each scene in your story located from the others?
What are the character means of transportation?
What technology do they have available?
What are the major occupations?
How does that culture view manual labor?
And Because I Write Erotica
How does the culture view sex, sexuality, and gender? (this is a huge part of my current novel)
What are the taboos of that region?
Are there any laws or formal regulations regarding sex?
Sex work is the oldest profession. How are sex workers regarded in this culture?
What sex toys and aids are available? What materials are they made of?
World Creation With Characters
The following questions will also help with character development. It gets into the cultures and lifestyles inside of your worlds.
What do I need to know about the context of my characters?
Do I understand their culture?
Do I understand the differences between how they live and how I (the author) live?
Do I understand the similarities?
Do I understand the rhythms, beliefs, and attitudes of their culture?
Have I spent enough time looking at or thinking about different people in that culture to not create a stereotype?
Am I familiar with the character’s occupation?
Do I know their jargon well enough to use it naturally in the character dialogue?
Do I know where my character lives?
How does location effect their lives?
What are the sounds and smells of where they live? (Remember to use all the senses)
Happy #FatSmutFriday! Today we’re talking vampires. These immortal/undead creatures have been villains and sex symbols for years and yet we see so few fat ones. So I’m dedicating this Halloween-season’s Fat Smut Friday to Fat Vampires.
I admit now that I did not come up with this idea on my own. I was perusing Twitter and saw someone ask where all the fat vamps are (see my quote response here). This opened a can of worms, of course. We can’t possibly portray more fat people in media for REASONS says the comments section. The reasons for skinny vampires were laughable. Included in the excuses were biology, the low calorie content of blood, and historical wasting sickness as well as the general fat hate. The OP pointed out several times – even if biology and fat-free blood were a factor, what about fat people that were turned into vampires. Surely it would take time for them to lose weight due to the change in their diet unless we’re talking sparkling, magical vampires whose bites make you immediately the public’s view of pretty. This never really got answered.
Fact is, vampires are fictional unless we’re talking about the vampyre subculture in which case – there are plenty of fat vampyres in the world (I’ve met a few myself – wanna learn more, check out this book and this book). Being fictional, creators can make vampires look however the fuck they want – including fat.
I did some searching – came across quite a bit of fat hate so be careful – and found this was not an uncommon question. Fat vampires turns out to be a niche that isn’t being met in movies, books, or other media. While there are stories that meet the criteria out there, they haven’t reached the popularity their counterparts with skinny vamps are. The best way to help with that is to read/watch/buy what is out there AND create more.
I am grateful that there are creators out there writing, filming, and drawing fat vampires. For that reason, I did a shout out and compiled a list. Granted not all of the vampires listed are particularly sexy or nice but they are fat and immortal/undead, which was the only two criteria.
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Pearl – Blade 1998 By far the most popular fat vampire out there is Pearl. This character is problematic but I wanted to get him out of the way. This supporting antagonist is a vampire archivist and it is never clarified if he is a pure blood or human that was turned into a vampire. Fans speculate he not only is a pure blood but is an ancient – explaining his knowledge of the language used in the film. If this is the case, it certainly knocks out the theory that vampires can’t get fat on blood. The director of the film was apparently questioned about Pearl’s size and explained “the cause of Pearl’s obese size was the creature gaining a cannibalistic lust for infants and children as he loves to eat their hearts.” I’d like to add here that heart is a lean meat, just for context. NOTE: Pearl is a classic case of a villain’s weight being part of their outward example of villainy and cowardice – not a cliche I’d like to see in future vampire stories with fat characters.
Morgan Kendrick by Jess Jess’ whole brand is sexy fat vampire and I ADORE her for it! Seriously…dayum. Her character Morgan is no different. Such yummy artwork and I can’t wait to see more of her! Check out her art twitter for more! @JKCanaan
Josephine Berendt of Black, Red, and Gold by Catherine Winters When I did my Fat Vamps shoutout on twitther, Catherine was more than happy to lend a hand – “I have a vampire trilogy featuring a fat main character who becomes a vampire. http://writingwinters.com/books will get you all the volumes, plus a prequel!” Black, Red, and Gold promise to be bloody sexy page turners! Amid worry for Max Spencer, fighting her love for Grant Black, and the pomp and circumstance of an Imperial covenmistress ceremony, Josephine has to unravel the opposition’s plans and keep her coven safe — all while watching her own back and working to discover the limits of her power. YUM!
Reginald Baskin – Fat Vampire series by Johnny B. Truant I haven’t read it so I can’t give an opinion. Does not contain any content warnings that I’ve found but the blurb says that Reginald is often mocked. It does not seem to be “own voices.” I recommend reading the reviews before buying. …as Reginald struggles with the downsides of being a fat vampire (too slow to catch people to feed on, mocked by those he tries to glamour, assaulted by his intended prey and left for undead), he discovers rare powers in himself that few vampires have … and just in time, because the Vampire Council wants him destroyed as an inferior representative of their race. Perfect for fans of Rick Gualtieri’s Tome of Bill series or Drew Hayes’ Fred the Vampire Accountant series, Fat Vampire is the story of an unlikely hero who, after having an imperfect eternity shoved into his grease-stained hands, must learn to turn the afterlife’s lemons into tasty lemon danishes.
Doug Lee – Fat Vampire by Adam Rex I haven’t read it so I can’t give an opinion. I recommend reading the reviews before buying. From School Library Journal Grade 10 Up Unlike most vampires who are drop-dead gorgeous, sexy, and irresistible, Doug is the exact opposite. Overweight, unpopular, and dorky, he seals his fate by being in the wrong place at the wrong time and as a result was attacked by a starving, newly made vampire. Now he must spend the rest of his immortal life as an unattractive 15-year-old, feeding off cows to satisfy his need for blood. With the support of some local vampire guardians and his friend Jay, the teen must now learn how to live life as a vampire. If events aren’t complicated enough, he falls for the new girl at school, and has the star of the TV show Vampire Hunters hot on his trail, trying to expose him to the world. Rex’s story falls flat. The back-and-forth narration between Doug and Sejal is confusing and slows down the plot. There are some promising moments, funny scenes, and intriguing themes that unfortunately just don’t pan out. Donna Rosenblum, Floral Park Memorial High School, NY
Support Fat Vampire Creators
When I did a shout out on Twitter asking for fat vampire rep, I did get a few creators who haven’t published or released their vamp babies yet.
Ami Mercury@amimercury has an awesome comic in the works called Casual Monsters. “My main character is Audrey. She’s a graphic designer who just broke up with her boyfriend and decided to take a weekend vacation in the mountains to collect her thoughts. Just outside of town her car breaks down, and she has no cell service. Luckily there’s an all-night garage just up ahead. This is where she meets the garage owner, Rob, our unlikely vampire character. He fixes her car and the two become friends. Through a series of plot points eventually she figures out that he’s a vampire. Now, for vampires in this setting, animal blood makes up the majority of their diet, but it’s encouraged that they get a human donor. A person who consents to letting their vampire friend drink their blood on occasion. Rob needs a donor, and Audrey needs a new place to live after breaking things off with her boyfriend. Rob offers her the spare apartment on his property in exchange for being his donor. From there romantic-comedy sitcom shenanigans ensue. But basically in my story, I treat vampirism as more like a “condition.” Yeah they’re still immortal, and they’re still dead, or “undead” as it were; but the shape-shifting and mind control, etc is not inherent to being a vampire. They are sensitive to sunlight, but they won’t immediately burst into flames/dust. They’ll just get really bad sunburns. They do require blood to “live,” but that doesn’t mean they can’t eat other foods. I actually plan on having other creatures in this story, as well: werewolves, sasquatch, mummies, etc. Much like the vampires their existence is more like a condition than anything supernatural. Honestly they kind of live normal lives, otherwise, and mostly go completely unnoticed by humans.” YALL! I’m really damn excited about this one – you bet your cute asses I’ll be reading this comic and reviewing with pleasure!
Bodie@geroakoya says he is working on some fat vamp erotica that he is now inspired to get back to: “I started writing an erotic short story about a fat vampire once! I never did anything with it but every so often I get really excited about the possibility of picking it back up again. The fat vampire’s name was Chauncy Lockhart, which is maybe my favorite name of any character I’ve ever written”
Ink York @inkayork author of soft supernatural being has some fat vampires about ready for our hot lil hands! “I have a fat girl vampire MC in my novella, Lotus (with my editor rn) & a fat girl vampire MC in my WIP, No Good Comes.”
Call for Fat Vampires
As I said, this is certainly a niche that could use some more reps. I would love to see and read more fat vamp characters. Some other requests that I saw and definitely agree with:
Fat Polyamorous Vamps
Fat Vampires of Color
Fat LGBTQ+ Vampires especially NonBinary, Trans, etc.
Do You Have a Fat Vampire Character?
Comment below your character or your favorite that isn’t listed. Not only do I want to see them but I’ll list them on twitter with some shout outs so definitely share links.
While most character questionaires focus on name, age, zodiac, what they look like, eye color, height, etc (and these are all good things to know in general) I want to focus on questions that dig deeper.
You see, my character issues aren’t due to forgetting Priscilla has red hair or that Teagan is 5 foot 9. My issues are that Priscilla is too naive to live (infantile almost) and Teagan is coming off as a self entitled prick. I have to fix that shit asap and the best way to do that is go back to their core personalities and beliefs.
Perhaps a better title for this blog post is Character Personality Questions or Inner Questions for Fiction Characters.
My Character Questions
If I were to describe this character in broad strokes, what would that description be?
What paradoxes make my character interesting?
What are my characters concerned about?
What do/did they want to be when they grew up and how does/did that attitude change or stay the same?
Where do they feel safe?
And because I write erotica:
How does this character feel about sex?
How does this character feel about sexuality and gender – their own and others?
How does this character feel about their genitalia or the genitalia of others?
What is my character’s hottest fantasy?
What is my character’s sexual history?
How is this shown in their current sex life and personality?
If you have already written your characters or a good chunk of your book – the following character questions can help in revision:
Have I shown a number of qualities my characters have?
Have I used attitudes to define my characters?
How are their cares/concerns conveyed in their actions?
I have announced my NaNoWriMo Project – a queer steampunk romance called Faith and Diplomacy. Now I’m compiling all of my favorite Preptober resources to start plotting and building. I thought I would share them with you all for #WriterWednesday and see if you find them as beneficial as I do.
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Romancing the Beat by Gwen Hayes – I consider this necessary reading for anyone that wants to write romance novels. It really helped clarify a number of issues I was having when plotting my stories.
Ready. Set. Novel! by Chris Baty, Lindsey Grant, and Tavia Stewart. This is the book that got me writing longer stories. I was in college and felt like I would never finish a full length novel and pretty down on myself. After being gifted this book for the holidays I finally felt like I had a tool that would get me through the biggest writing funk I’ve ever been in.
2000 to 10000 by Rachel Aaron. I love Rachel’s books. They’re fast paced, coherent, and the characters feel real. In short – everything I want from a fun read. She has a large library of novels and when I discovered that she had a book that not only taught her writing method BUT how to write faster to get more books out, SOLD! The book is awesome. Many of the tips I’ve never seen in my resource collecting over the years.
NaNoWriMo – not only does the site help you keep track of your word count it also has pep talks from best selling authors, forums to chat with other aspiring novelists, and community connections with writers in your area for Preptober and NaNoWriMo meetups. Wanna be Buddies? Friend me
Jami Gold – romance writing spreadsheets, worksheets, and writing craft articles really helped me get a grasp on romance writing and how it differs from my past dabbling in high fantasy and horror.
Scrivener – I adore this writing app. I bought it years ago after winning NaNoWriMo gave me a discount. When I switched to Linux I was disappointed to find they hadn’t really developed the app for that platform. Thankfully, Erkus Be Damned developed the app for Linux users – its even free (until Scrivener eventually decides to develop for this platform if that ever happens). I love this app because it allows me to create and access writing notes without a ton of windows or tabs open. Its what I use for prep and drafting before switching over to Google Docs for finishing draft(s).
When I started SmutGeek in 2018, it was during Top Sex Blog voting season. Kinkly was in the process of announcing their Sex Blog Superheros – those top 100 popular blogs readers nominated and voted for with love. I read the list with heart eyes. Now is my chance to try for it. Please click here for the Top Sex Blog Voting opportunity.
What is a Top Sex Blogger List?
Its a listing of blogs that are sex positive nominated and voted on by fans. These blogs are then evaluated based on the Kinkly criteria of writing quality, frequency of posts, sex and body positivity, over all design, active social media, overall impression, and number of votes. I need at least 5 votes to be considered. If each person that has seen my blog this month votes that would be well over 200 people rooting for me. If each person that follows me on Twitter votes, that would be over 1700 fans cheering me on!
What does it mean to make it on the top 100 list and when will they announce the winners? “On November 4th, we’ll announce the Top 100 Sex Blogging Superheroes of 2019. We’ll also break out and crown a few winners in key categories – and hand out some prizes from the Kinkly Shop. We can’t wait!”
Remember that its not a perfect system. No matter the results of the final list, whether I make it in the top 100 or not, its not a direct representation of how good my site is.
Kayla Lords shared on Smutlancer “If you’re a sex blogger hoping to one day make at least enough money to pay your hosting fees, you should be asking – do these things matter?” She went on to explain:
Its validation of the hard work we writers do. Its a chance to feel supported in your hobby/biz choice and see enthusiasm for the work you do.
More views of my site equals more chances for the work I love doing. Bloggers on the list are more likely for companies to email them and say “We saw you made the list – congratulations! Would you like to work with us?” This is the dream, y’all.
This is the beginning of the next installation of the Nerdy, Dirty, and Curvy series I’ve been working on. Originally published this glimpse during Smutathon. Despite the dubious ending here, the longer short story had definite happily ever after vibes.
Elodie opened her toy chest and looked over her options. If she was
doing a video she would have chosen a newer, showier piece – a huge
tentacle dildo or a lightsaber vibrator. But it was just her tonight and
the point was to get off not show off. She pushed a few brightly
colored items aside and reached for her favorite vibrator. It was one of
the first she ever bought but still going strong – a pink, silicone
tongue shape about the length of her hand.
Pulling off her shorts, she went to the dresser where she laid out the
panties she needed to wear. They were simple white bikini cut with a
tiny satin bow in the front. She’d bought them as part of a pack and
took pictures for her site but that was the only time she’d worn them. A
client was requesting them now, well used.
Taking off the rest of her clothes, she pulled the panties on and
plopped onto her bed. It squeaked a little under her – the benefit or
take away of having an old fashioned brass bed, depending on how you
looked at it. Her cam clients loved the bed. It had a blend of nostalgia
and added audio sensory to her porn. Each squeak let them know of her
thrusts and movements.
Sprawling out comfortably, she pushed the single button on her vibrator
twice to put it on the medium speed setting. Bringing it between her
legs, she teased her pussy lips through the crotch of her white panties.
It didn’t take long to tease her clit and labia into tingling
Closing her eyes, Elodie brought up an old memory. It was from years
ago, but the first time she fooled around with a girl was still a memory
that got her off even now.
Circling, her clit with the vibe she let herself relax into it.
It was the year before she started college. Newly adults, she and her
best friend were doing the things they enjoyed most – gaming, watching
anime, and chilling out in Vanna’s basement. Vanna was butch, nerdy, and
adorable in a way that sadly few people seemed to noticed. Few people
other than Elodie, that is.
Vanna was playing a video game, a new one that she was eager to beat but
years later Elodie would forget the name of. Elodie was sprawled on the
old sofa, drinking Mountain Dew and watching her friend. Both were
avoiding the conversation that was on their minds – soon they would be
splitting up. Vanna was accepted into MIT and Elodie was going to
Berkley. A nation between them after years of being practically
Sliding off the couch, Elodie joined Vanna in the floor, sitting
close enough their knees and elbows touched. “Anything you wanna do
before you leave for school?”
Vanna pushed her glasses up and ran a hand through her chin-length hair
that always looked like it needed brushed. “I dunno. Might hit Jay’s
shop a last time and give him shit for not letting me see his Suspense
Comics number 3 he claims he has but everyone knows he doesn’t.”
Biting her lip, Elodie leaned in so their shoulders touched.
“Why, what about you?” Vanna asked, glancing at her with a raised brow.
If it had gone down years later, when Elodie was more immersed in
consent culture as a sex worker, she would have asked first. As it was,
she was too scared to think twice when she kissed her best friend.
Vanna’s lips were chapped and she tasted like orange soda. These were
the things Elodie remembered vividly as she stroked her vibrator against
her dampening panties.
At first, Vanna sat their stunned. When Elodie pulled back, barely an
inch, they stared at each other and Vanna’s glasses fogged slightly with
Before Elodie could apologize for her impulsiveness, Vanna leaned in and did the unthinkable – she kissed Elodie back.
The first kisses were hesitant and exploratory. It wasn’t Elodie’s
first kiss. That had been Tommy Kemp behind the bleachers in junior
high. Tommy’s kiss was open mouth and slobbery. Vanna’s was softer than
When Elodie opened her mouth, Vanna responded with nipping her bottom
lip. She pulled back and looked Elodie’s face over as to make sure the
tiny bite was ok before leaning in to kiss her again. Slowly, Vanna
reached up to cradle Elodie’s face in her hand, rubbing her jaw with the
pad of her thumb.
Taking a silent queue, Elodie raised her hands to Vanna’s shoulders and
neck. She could feel her friend’s pulse in her neck, thrumming harder
and faster than the video game sound effects in the background.
Out of breath, Elodie pulled back and smiled.
“How long?” Vanna asked, her voice raspy as she pushed her glasses up from where they’d slid down her nose. Shrugging, Elodie couldn’t recall a specific time that she knew she wanted her best friend. “Always maybe? Definitely at my sixteenth birthday party.” Vanna blushed and looked down at her lap. No one else had showed up to Elodie’s sweet sixteen because that bitch Brittany Marsh told the class Elodie was a slut. Vanna came though. She insisted Elodie have the best night and said they could do whatever she wanted. They ended up sneaking out of Elodie’s house and went skinny dipping in the neighbor’s pool. Vanna had been too shy to take off her underwear but Elodie remembered well how her friend had looked in the dim light from the nearby street lamps.
“You?” Elodie asked, feeling her nervousness return. Vanna had shrugged and laughed hoarsely. “Always. Since we were kids.” She had looked so small and vulnerable then. She opened her mouth a few times as if to tell Elodie something else but ended up only shaking her head. Unwilling to let this go, Elodie leaned in and kissed Vanna’s lips softly. She feathered kisses along Vanna’s jaw to her earlobe. Teasing Vanna’s ear with her teeth, she moved her mouth down along her friend’s neck, making Vanna shiver. “Elodie,” Vanna had whispered and the memory of her name said so softly with need made Elodie buck her hips towards her vibrator and moan. Vanna’s hands came up and Elodie half expected her friend to push her away. Instead, they ran over her back, up to her shoulders and down along her collar bone.
“I…can I touch you?”
Sitting up, Elodie had been surprised by the request but definitely not
opposed. She smiled and, as she nodded her consent, she grabbed the
bottom of her t-shirt and pulled it quickly up over her head. Shaking
out her dark curls, she looked at Vanna questioningly.
Vanna only stared at her a moment. Her eyes went down to Elodie’s
breasts cupped in her plain white bra. It would be another year before
Elodie discovered the fun of lingerie and cute underwear but Vanna
didn’t seem to mind the plainness when she raised her fingers up to the
edge of the cup.
Raising her hand, Elodie caressed her tits as she recalled how Vanna had
touched her – first through the barely padded bra then pulled it down
to cup her fully and run her thumbs over her nipples.
“Do you wanna see more?” Elodie asked when she decided to discard her bra.
Wide eyed, Vanna nodded. Elodie stood up and pulled off her jeans and
socks then her panties. She remembered already being wet, wetter than
she was now, teasing her pussy on her bed. She didn’t shave or wax then
but, again, Vanna didn’t seem to mind.
Sitting back down, Elodie leaned in and kissed Vanna again. Their kisses
were harder this time, needy. Vanna played with her breasts and,
tentatively, Elodie took one hand and brought it down to her inner
thigh. Taking the lead from there, Vanna reached between her legs and
stroked Elodie’s wet pussy. Like their first kisses, the touch was a
gentle exploration of labia and clit. Slowly, she slipped two fingers
into Elodie and made her gasp.
“Did I hurt you?” Vanna asked, pulling her fingers out.
Shaking her head, Elodie pushed Vanna’s hand back. “No. It feels good.”
It had felt so much better than when Elodie masturbated. She hadn’t
Vanna’s hands weren’t skilled like Elodie’s later lovers. She didn’t
know how to find Elodie’s g-spot or stroke her until she came. But those
tentative touches were enough to make Elodie soak her panties with an
orgasm years later.
Shaking and arching against her vibrator, Elodie moaned her former
friend’s name. The crotch of her panties soaked with cum, making the tip
of her vibrator wet as well.
As she came down from her orgasm, Elodie pushed the vibe’s button until it switched off. It was then, in the shaky aftermath, that the rest of the memory came to her. “Can I?” Elodie had asked, wanting to do the same to Vanna. She pulled at Vanna’s t-shirt, wanting to see her naked too. Vanna pulled her hands back and looked away as if ashamed. She hesitated and shook her head finally. “I don’t think I can get naked in front of you.” Elodie hadn’t understood. Suddenly aware and embarrassed of her nakedness, she crossed her arms and covered herself. It made no sense to her. Vanna was skinnier and cute as hell even with the tomboy clothes, bad haircut, and thick glasses. Before Vanna could find a way to speak up, Elodie pulled her clothes on. She made some excuse, something about needing to meet up with her mom.
Thinking back, she wished she’d tried to make Vanna explain. Why had they kissed? Why had Vanna touched her if she didn’t want her? It was one of only a handful of regrets Elodie had. Like student loans, however, there was nothing she could do about it now. Sliding her sticky panties off, Elodie slid her fingers over her bare, wet cunt with a sigh. It was just a memory. Tossing the panties into a pink gift bag, she added a business card with her site info, some logo stickers, and a handwritten note thanking her client for buying and wishing him wet daydreams. This she put into a plain brown box with the discreet return address: ELLO. Pulling in her ragged shorts and an of t-shirt, she put the small package in her mailbox, lifted the flag and smiled at her morning’s work completed.